This entry is a bit of a rant but I know a lot of you can relate.
I have been unemployed since Friday, June 13th. The day started out bad when I broke something glass before even stepping out my door. I got to work and it was a pretty normal day, as normal as it had been at least. I quit a job as a legal assistant where I got a paycheck every week, even though it got a little scary sometimes, and left to work for a one attorney firm making more money, which I definitely did! I thought this guy was great he made good money he was young and handsome and successful. I thought it was going to be great! He promised me vacation and bonuses, I was so excited at the thought of getting to go home for a friends wedding and spending Christmas with my family. But on this Friday the 13th my luck changed. I got my paycheck before I left for lunch, went to the mall to get my hubby a Father's Day present and lunch came back to work and around 2:30 I was called into his office where he fired me, or I consider it as being laid off. He told me my resume was false I wasn't as qualified as it shows on paper, and he just didn't have the time to train me. The day he hired me he promised to train me. This is when I realized, this man who pretends to be a nice guy, is a back stabber and jerk! How can someone take a sweet innocent 21 year old girl, take her from somewhere I had a stable job even if I didn't like it, and screw her like that?? My husband was ready to kill him knowing he hurt me and made me cry.
That's not it for that day though! I have never been a real superstitious person. This day totally changed all that for me. My husband and I were planning on spending the weekend in his hometown with our friends and family. We still decided to go since I had just been paid and after the day we had so far we needed to get out of town.
We were on our way to a friends when in the middle of total nowhere a black cat runs across the road in front of us! Crazy huh?! Friday the 13th and all this, odd...
Finally we made it to our destination! We hung out with our friends and stayed up nearly all night. I remember having to cuddle with my husband in a recliner that night but that's ok 😍
When we woke up that morning his phone was dead and his mom called me. We found out that his Memaw had gone back into the hospital. She had surgery a week prior to get gallstones removed after having problems for months, bless her heart!
At this point we are thinking how much worse could things get?? We spent a majority of the weekend in the Hospital. She was released after having a GI bleed which was so scary for our family! Unfortunately Memaw wound up back in the hospital about a week later. Luckily today she is home and doing so much better and we are so blessed that God allowed her to stick around awhile longer.
I have spent the whole summer unemployed. I admit, I was taking an anti-depressant that completely took my motivation away and it's taken awhile to get it back.
The last 4 weeks I've been working with unemployment trying to get approved and bring home a check, 272 a week, just enough to help us survive. I was so relieved Monday of this week when a roe at unemployment told me I could expect a check this week thanks to her being so helpful, so I had thought. I got to speak with another rep yesterday who informed me I will not be getting a check this week. Just another setback for the Hart's.
After all these set-backs it is so hard to stay positive and believe something good is going to happen. But my husband every time I get to where I wanna give up, always tells me that I need to be positive. It's hard when it feels that the world is against you. But God has a plan for us. He is testing our relationship.
I have had lots of opportunities to go home, and I know that if I truly was ready to leave at any point that I will be out of here. But when you marry someone, your kind of stuck. Yeah I know, I could get a divorce, but there's no way. That's the easy way out, just for now. Later down the road it can lead to regret and who know what else. When I married Scott, I got on the train for the long haul. He's stuck with me whether he likes it or not and same goes for me. We could fight all day or week but we still love eachother no matter what. Relationships are hard, especially when the world around you is falling apart. We both need to become closer to God.
God is testing our relationship to test our faith, and to bring us closer together. Even though we fight and things have happened, we are still closer than ever. As long as we have eachother we will be ok.
I am also so thankful for our sweet pups! Lilah is so sweet and always knows when something is wrong she will always be by your side, or on too of you, lol! And Willie, well he's just a silly puppy who doesn't know what going on but he's a sweetie 😊
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